then you’re alive.

If your heart is full of anxieties,

then you’re alive

If your vision is alight with dreams,

then you’re alive

you must learn to be free like the gust of wind

you must learn to flow in waves like the sea

embrace each moment with open arms

Let your gaze find something new to cherish all the time

If your eyes are burdened with wonder,

then you’re alive

if your heart is full of anxieties,

then you’re alive.

My current Paramour...

I'm so overjoyed that DR. Dre is back with a latest song! Featuring my personal favorite 'EMINEM'

This number is AWESOME!!!

Check out my desktop....

IT LOOPS!!!

I know... Some kind of Craze is going on right now! but loving it 'Utter Much!!!'

JtV

i didn't plan this

♥The lesson♥

When you listen to your heart, follow your passion, and do what you love to do, it’s hard not to be outstanding. You’re almost guaranteed to succeed...

The roadblocks you encounter on the way to reaching your destination are actually gifts. Treat them as challenges that you were meant to experience and learn from. They are like small tests that the universe presents us with, as if asking: “How bad do you really want this? Have you given up yet?”

When you are clear about wanting something, take action towards its attainment, and persist until you reach it, the universe will conspire to make it a reality. Your energy and determination will move people, and they will find ways to help you.

Insecurities and negative self-talk derived from fear achieves nothing, except to convince us that we are failures and losers. These are lies that only appear real in our imagination.

We are all naturally gifted at certain disciplines. You’ll know when you find it, because you can quickly grasp new concepts, you find it enjoyable, and doing it comes easy to you; almost like breathing.

Don't stop trying...

Oh Gosh, I totally miss writing, Its been what? few months already I haven't logged in here. what got me started now again? Well... I was practically doing nothing, so I decided to open up my blog and read through all of my past post's. Then suddenly while strolling on each piece and reading them, the cloud pop out floating above my head and states "Wow! my inceptions were true enough a dreary life which I lead the past a year or two."

Then I look around me, thinking, and thinking, and thinking over and over again. This world has many beautiful surrounding as we watch, is just that we don't open our eyes wide enough to actually see it OR beautiful is just not enough. of course it is also filled with misery around us where we ought to run away from. But then again situations like this we tend to block it from our life and pretend that nothing had ever happened, so we continue with our lives? But wouldn't that be cheating ourselves? or come hunting back someday? *Paused*

Being Beautiful and tribulations are indeed two separate elements as we all know and is a must occur in every lives. This reminded me of someone who made a statement of a certain individual couple of days back. She said "omg, she's so pretty, she has the height, the body,and look her face is glowing and happy always, I bet she has a perfect life!". Well I'm not gonna lie that she is Miss Perfect but in the OUTSIDE, you know nothing about her, how could you judge everything by just her appearance? this is where I find many people make a mistake in contemplations one after another. True enough this individual who apparently LOOKS perfect, is no perfect life she's leading. Her true world is filled with melancholy and in great pain. I call her the 'Damsel of Distress'. After a long chat with her, such a overwhelming story I must say.

"No one's perfect", we hear this sentence all the time, seems easy to understand, and we think we understand but in reality we DON'T! we tend to be in denial state of mind. we say "No! I want to be perfect in everything I do, and lead a perfect life. I want what I want!". Perfection out of ten maybe four or five is accomplished depending on your effort or where you take things to next level. read this 'how much effort you give don't count because it did not prevailed, back to zero'. Don't stop that hard-work, keep on trying even theres no results after a hundred try, never to give up. Because that hundred try is actually an important knowledge you will need for the next hundred and one try, trust me, it will pay off!

Well mine did now!

^JtV^

I have Forgotten you

My eyes are raining and even my arid dreams have become soaked

My eyes are raining while my sleep cries in the corners of my eyelids

My eyes are raining tears fall and my heart aches

My eyes are raining as the season of dark clouds and separation approaches

I have started to become friends with dark and empty nights

Lost in these paths, nothing belongs to me anymore

I don't how I endure each passing moment

I keep telling myself over and over again

I have forgotten you oh

Then why have your memories

Made me cry, oh. Made me cry

I can hear the words written in my memories of you

Passed moments ask why we parted ways like this, Oh Lord

Lord, this distance I've got. God, it's only your decision,

God, it has happened, that you had written..

I have started to become friends with dark and empty nights

Lost in these paths, nothing belongs to me anymore

I don't how I endure each moment

I keep telling myself over and over again

I have forgotten you, oh

Then why have your memories

made me cry, oh. made me cry

My eyes are raining and even my arid dreams have become soaked

My eyes are raining as the season of dark clouds and separation approaches

For two moments I was attached to you

Then the path was turned such

I started to lose you It felt like I was losing something mine from me

Now you must pray for me Only you can free me from all this pain

Being yours, if I am no longer yours, I say this to myself

I have forgotten you, oh.

Then why have your memories

made me cry, oh. made me cry

Anjaana Anjaani - Tujhe Bhula Diya

~JtV~

Confused?

What am I confused with?

I'm always confused with everything thats around me all the time. I'm in total shocked as well as confused again about the repetition in my life. the same shit i go through every single day. The same daily chores. The same work. The same walkabout's. The same people I meet. The same 'loneliness' i feel everyday. Theres not one thing that is different! why isn't there any changes and progress in me and in my life? maybe I'm responsible for that, it's my own action i guess. maybe i don't make any sort of effort in changing. Or maybe is a test and all this is just for a while, its parts and particles of life just like everybody said. But to think of it, I have a steady life and an independent woman especially from where I come from...

Maybe It's not enough. I'm still confused!

^JtV^